Solitary Soliloquy

Solitary Soliloquy

I'm walking down this path again
Not knowing when it'll end.
Oh Solitude, please stay with me.
You'll forever be my friend.

Oh Hope! Have you forsaken me again?
Oh Love! You have broken me again!
And I bleed.
And I breathe
The stench of yesterday,
When you went your way,
When you went away...
Away from me...

I'm walking down this path again
It tells me that it'll never end.
Oh Solitude, please set me free.
Or to my Hell I will descend.

Oh Hope! Can you make me feel again?
Oh Love! Can you make me live again?
And I'll breathe.
And I'll bleed
No more until the day I die.
I'll smile and only god knows why.
I'll smile and only you know why.
Because to my heaven's gate I'll fly.

Mummification

Mummification

Drain my Body of Blood
For Life, I have none!
(blood is life... blood is life... blood is life...)

Remove my Innards!
Force them into Empty Vessels with Heads of Animals...
As if my being worth less than
Common Beasts...
Yet they Smile!
Those Bottles smile after they Consume me...
Yet even those Canopic Jars don't want my
Wretched Heart...
Let it Wither Painfully within me...

My brain?
Oh!
Discard It!
Drain it through my nose with
Vulgarity!
Destroy my Encephalon!
My Thoughts mean nothing!

Drown my Cadaver in Salt
In an attempt to Dehydrate me of
Pain!
Yet you merely sting every Open Wound!

Then, Wrap and Engulf me
With strips of White Linens of my
Agony!
My Skin shall never Escape them now!

Finally, encase me in a Sarcophagus of Shame
With a Painted
Smile...
Like that of a Clown...
The Joker...
The Fool...
Or maybe The Cheshire Cat...
I don't really care...

Okay then...
I'm all done...
Embalmed and Preserved
So that the Whole World can Laugh
At my Humiliation...

I'm merely
An Empty,
Lifeless,
And Cold
Mummy...